又是新一年来了，2008。去年的现在还在为高考伏案，今天业已能够安心从容地做着自己的事情写着自己的博。这种时候该干什么呢？似乎总免不了回望下过去。总觉得自己的高中三年，每一天都是那么的多彩，却始终少不了或浓或淡的黑云。也许，没有黑色，就不是完全的多彩。三年来，从一无所知开始成长，到今日的水准，也算不小的进步。但细数过去的一年，总觉得自己变化不大。虽然手头工夫有所长进，但仍欠着很多的火候。脑袋里每天有太多的想法涌出，却不能很好的表达出来。有时看着那些人的那些美作，兴奋之余也有失落。本来没多少的信心打了个八五折。一直没有老师没有同伴的努力，还能走多远？我真的能走到想去的地方么？不断地问着自己。离开的一年，有所得——学会游泳，技艺长进，坚强地洗冷水澡云云。亦有所失——高考上说大不大说小不小的失利。还有未完全失去却渐行渐远的一些东西，现在只能无奈地望着背影发呆心烦。说来感情也怪，曾经一次次的决心一条条的伤口都未能损坏，现在却不知觉地从手指间溜走。也许其实早有裂痕的了。也许这就是拔钉子的故事...但相信至少从此学会了珍惜与放弃。

最近有时候会想，自己是个什么样的人呢？
多愁善感？以前分别时哭得犀利哗啦的们，现在提起却难起波澜。也许我只是多情。
原则性强？面对那人那事，底线一退再退，原则何止被丢弃过一次？也许，无欲才钢。
想自己讨厌孤独却是个彻彻底底的独狼；少有被人说不阳光的自己心头却是赶不走的忧郁；有时容易自满却常常没有自信；很“油”，但面对厌恶的那人那事却无法装饰一点点喜欢；信缘，而也曾舍弃原则而求缘；避世，可常被好胜心遮望眼；悲观主义却时常幻想与奢望；善于言辞却拙于交际；无畏并着怯懦与害羞；成熟拌着幼稚。。。这，好象就是我，一个复杂的单细胞生物。

既然是新年，是不是也该写下点小小的心愿呢？恩。。。希望新的一年里能更强大，更接近目标；能够遇见新的缘分，不管是爱情友情的，但一定要是适合的值得信赖的呀；最最重要的是所有人能继续健健康康平平安安的，还要充满爱~！

侃了这么多，感觉都懒的去写英文版了。。。

最后，把这周做的几个新年和圣诞的海报发了受P吧。。。（本来还想发些以前的作品的，但实在懒额，而且也么多大意思，所以就留个相册：http://www.bababian.com/photo/94800787F21F516864FBEED8753AD515UR）

bathing in the cold water

曾说过故事将快结束，也许会笑我多虑。但或许是我敏感，又或者是你迟钝，终究在那一夜瞥见了宿命。曾经的曾经你我相伴，看尽我的泪我的笑我的无颜与悲哀。那日的夜你我同行，你离的依然很近，望着背影，心却很远。我试着伸出右手，却只捞到无奈。心中想着靠近，却不禁要逃开。从此，每次期盼被换成放开，依赖渐渐被疲倦替代。
从未想过的分开，渐渐到来。抱着回忆，伤痛在夜晚。但掌管温暖的你，再冻也不会扭开，因为我是洗冷水的男。


I had said that the story would end soon. Maybe you had laughed at my worry. But perhaps because of my sensitive or your slow, this came ture and I saw fate that night. We used to go together. You had saw my tear, smile,losing face and suffering. That night we still walked together. You were so close. But your heart was too far to be feeled when I was gazing at you. Although I managed to stretch my right hand, I got noting except helplessness. I can't help to run away though my heart sometime tells me to be close to you. After that day, every expectance is replaced by giving up and tired is taking the place of relying.
Leaving, never being thought of, is on his way here. I am gazing at our recollection and feel upset all the night. But no matter how freeze it is, I won't switch on you, the leader of warm. Because I am the man bathing in the cold water.

I AM HERE NOW

搬！又搬家了！不是我想的。只是有些东西被亲人看见了。并非是不能看，只是思前想后的觉得怀着怕亲人担心的心情去写博就失去了原有的意义。人还是需要一个很私密的去处的。恩，突然发现，原来博客并非是可以无话不谈的。有些，依然得藏在心底，因为怕伤了心。
再来，很多达人似乎都在google这圈了地，为了靠近他们，俺就选了这作为新家了。致辞完毕。。。


Moving! Moving again! This is not my hope. Just because something was discovered by my parents. In fact, they are allowed to read my words. But I think blog will lose its meaning if I write in the feeling of beng afraid of parents'worrying. Man shall have a room of its own. Um, suddenly I find that in truth one can't say everything he wants in blog. Something still has to be hidden in the heart in order not to hurt others.
Secondly, so many super man have had their own world in google. In order to be closed to them, I choose here as my new home in the end.
Lecture for arriving ends...

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Moving! Moving again! This is not what I wanted, but my parents found out my other blog.In fact, they can read my posts all they want, but I think blog will lose its meaning if I won't feel free to write everything in order not to let my parents worry about me. Man shall have a room of its own. Um, suddenly I find that in fact one can't say everything he wants in blog. Something still has to be hidden in the heart in order not to hurt others.
Moreover, a lot super man seem to use google blog. It is one of the reasons that I choose here as my new home.
The end.